I Just Want You (:

Friday, August 27, 2010
@9:39 PM

Even when im not tryna create any troubles i always find a way to piss people off..
Even when i was thinking more of your feelings than my own, you end up getting pissed at me..
I really cant have another fight. you dont know how much it hurts me.. ):
~~I wanna go to bed and not wake up tomorrow..~~

Right.

on a brighter side...

Cause you're amazing just the way you areee

and i never wanted anth to change

Saturday, August 21, 2010
@2:08 PM

Sick of school.

Bored of life.

Heh screw it

Thursday, August 19, 2010
@7:29 PM

Guess you dont need me..

Its a sad, sad life when you're sick and stuck at home.
So yeah, had high fever yesterday morning. 39 degrees. At first i still wanted to go to school cause someone was upsetttt ):
But when my mom found out my temperature she forced me to not go.

So i went to the polyclinic. Since i had a high temeperature they gave me priority to see the docotr earlier. weee im special :D
Saw the doctor and she said I should take a blood test... So i did. I bet the nurse gave me AIDS with that needle! bitch!
Then waited waited and the doctor said eveyrthing seemed okay with my blood.
So i went home and rested, Have been slacking around since yesterday just lying down, watching tv etc.

My fever's better but the left side of my chest is hurting a lot and i dont know why.
Its like whenever i toss and turn on my bed or do something straining it hurts. I cant move that much so... sad life.

Its boringggg
But then again, I dont really wanna go back to school. Kinda sick of school life already.. -_-
Nothing to look forward to anymore lol.
~~not like it makes a difference if im there or not right...~~
uhh kay emo shit LOL.

Maybe i just need this break. hmmm

Ah well meds making me tired again. better go rest?
BUH-BYE!

Friday, August 13, 2010
@8:37 PM

Fucked Friday

Would you be happier if you woke one day and found I wasn't here anymore?

Im no better than him.. i say i'll change but i never do.. im trying, i really am. guess i just can't..

Sunday, August 8, 2010
@1:37 PM

Love?

Teenage Dreams

KATY PERRYYYYYY♥♥♥!!! OMGGGG

Currently going crazy over this song.

But for some reason it made me think ..

Teenage love?

Everyone's gonna dream of it at some point in their teenage lives right? Its so common nowadays. Yet everytime you experience it, its like the best thing that could happen in your life. Whether its just a crush Or the two of you are together.

When you get that crazy feeling when you're alone with him/her.

When all you wanna do is run up to them and hug them and never let go.

When you cant stop smiling when they're talking to you.

When there's an awkward silence but you dont mind as long as you're with them

When your hand's in their's

When they lie on your shoulder while you're in the bus with them.

When in your head all you're thinking of is being with them forever

But reality is, what are the chances of things working out when you're 15?

You're gonna eventually leave each other behind when you change schools and stuff.

Even if you guys manage to get to the same school, or find a way to meet up often. what makes you so sure your feelings are gonna last for that long?

I mean, its not impossible for it to last. It has happened before. Its just that, the chances arent that high.

Still, we cling on to that hope that it will.

Its not that we cant EXPERIENCE true love at this age.

Its just that most of us probably don't know how to HANDLE it yet.

You see those people randomly breaking down in school cause of relationship problems?

Or those who've been crushing on someone for a long time but have to deal with seeing them with someone else.

See how much they hurt?

Yeah, it sucks. Heartbreak sucks. It feels like its the end of everything. Like nothing's gonna be okay ever again. But life goes on right? its not the end. Eventually we'll move on. Whether a month, a year, or maybe even longer. we will.

But y'know that first love is always gonna remain in your heart no matter what.

That first time you got that ecstatic feeling. The first time you felt everything was okay as long as you had that someone. With every other person you find, you're always going to find yourself comparing them to your first love right?

Where am i going with all of this? I have no idea...

Its just that despite everything. all the hurt, heartbreak, jealousy etc.

We still take a chance.

Just to be happy with that someone (:
And that, is what's amazing

Saturday, August 7, 2010
@6:52 PM

I better run, run, run, run~

3.5 KM jog/walk (mostly walk LOL) and

80 pushups all together throughout the day.

Im feeling a little fitter now!! hahah

but i needa lose my big big tummy FATS!

Feel kinda weird cause I cant breathe properly when i exercise nowadays :s

Hmm is there something wrong with me or is it just cause of the 11 KG i pout on this year O.o

Idk. either way i feel uncomfortable being so fat! T_T

If only mosquitoes sucked fats instead of blood eh?

Somebody teach me how to get 6 pac=D LOLOL

(edit)

So turns out i went for a big dinner and ate icecream too!
Sigh all those burnt calories for nth T_T
Stupid caveman instincts to keep eating!!!
AHHHHH

Oh btw i forgot to mention. when i was running just now i wore my sec 2 class tee and my name at the back is caveman.
So I ran past these 2 chiobus and they shouted ''caveman!!''
LOLOL ^^

@12:36 AM

As Long As Youre happy (:

Ndp parade today was awesome?? (: I didn't really watch the parade much cause I was mainly just walking around with 3/5 people, accompanying them as they sold food. haha.
Team Genesis had a great performance! (:

Imagine if i stayed in NP i could be doing that now omg! so cool hahaha. nvm, live without regrets(Y)
And i like the wedding dress dance too! And kaiwen's dancing damn nice. *jealous-ed* wish i could dance T_T LOL

Woo i managed to spot tiny angela marching LOLOL. Somebody screwed up eh!? hahah.
I think band uniform is cool too yo. And arafat kept on laughing at someone in band... uhh shant mention who xD
And why are ppl fangirl-ing over indians now!? I mean, HELLO! IM INDIAN TOO! why doesnt anobody think im hot ='( LOL! JK

After NDP event was over, bad bad stufs happened. sighhh
Im sorry to you? its partly my fault, i know. But dont you think you were seriously over reacting. ah well.

Im tired. Long weekend aye. Time to catch up on revision on the next few days.. wish me luckkkk (:

Tuesday fiona CHOY's house to help out with her project? Im gonna be the prince and loysius is my cinderella! hahahah ^^

Monday, August 2, 2010
@9:34 PM

umm..

Prolly a little too open for the blog.. but i gotta get this out.

Im sorry, for everything. Sorry for all the stress i've given you.
I know i've said i'll change countless times but i haven't. its hard when you're still trying to hold on to everything you had before? I guess I just missed the way things were and didnt expect it to change?
But i know its not your fault either. You would have if you could. I understand your situation.
Its not that I dont care about you and your feelings and stuff.. cause I do, a lot. probably more than you think.
I'm just paranoid all the time i guess.. And i HAVE to stop

yeah i've been 'emo' recently and shit.
But i guess i gotta stop being so selfish. Life doesnt revolve around yourself right?
So once again, I apologize for everything. Sorry for being like that everyday. Its tough for you too.

You know i'll still always be here if you need me. Dont ever be afraid to tell me anth.
Cause I'd probably sneak out of my house at 2 in the morning to see you if I really had to

God, give me strength
And make sure my bestfriends' always happy and okay ♥

Sunday, August 1, 2010
@11:52 PM

Cause I want it all, or nothing at all

Yesterday, tuition was cancelled last minute so Loysius and Zul suddenly decided to come over to my house~~ woooooooooooo
But i was extremely bored yest afternoon so it was quite boring for them i guess. sorry guys . haha

After awhile zul left to play soccer and Loysius and I went to Safra. Met jieliang, thomas and his pri school friends and some 3/6 ppl there. Slacked awhile, watched them play pool. then i left cause i needed to go for the Malay play thing

Met at the school gate. Took a bus there. Crapped crapped in the bus!
We thought the place was gonna be high class like air con and stuff cause Ms Zahara told us to come quite formally dressed? In the end i t was just a Community Center! No aircon. no comfortable chairs, NOTHING LOL.
Sat in between Arafat and Arif. After 5 minutes all of us gave up watching the play!. We were like completely ignoring everything going on on stage.
Good thing i sat beside Arafat, He's madddddddddddddddddddd funny (:
crapped throughout the entire play.

Seriously, staring at jo is more fun than watching the thing. and he's like lifeless LOL!
Anyways i like arif's phoneeeeeeeeee (:

Bus-ed back to school.
Ate mac and went home (:

Today my bro went for a bowling comepetition thingy for kids like that just for fun haha. HE WON FIRST PLACE like zomg!!

Yup he got all his talent from me LOL!

And and my mom suddenly came home today with a Diadora bag she bought for me? haha. Idk why she suddenly bought it. She said i could go get ath one if i didnt like it.

Its more like a sports bag? But nvm i'll use it now cause im sick of my other 4-year old bag?

Thanks mom? (:

I ordered new specs and can collect it tmrw. Thicker frame. Hopefully its nice. Anyone wanna follow me to go and collect pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee? =D

I just realised all my blogsongs are emooooo ):

Cause I want it all or nothing at all

There's no where left to fall

When you reach the bottom, it's now or never

Is it all, or are we just friends

Is this how it ends, with a simple telephone call

You leave me here, with nothing at all

TERM TESTS 3 DAYS AWAY~!

Time to work hard deep!

What do you do, when you don't even know what you yourself want anymore ?